I’ve been living in an orphanage since birth. My parents abandoned me, but I was told that my mom and dad visited me a lot and were interested in me. But then suddenly they stopped coming. They even said that they left me temporarily and, after they solve their problems, they were going to take me back. But suddenly they disappeared.
All my conscious life I waited to be taken away. When I became an adult and left the orphanage, I decided to look for my parents myself. I absolutely wanted to find them and ask them why they had forgotten me.
I found them. It turned out they had two children. They were several years younger than me. And my resentment doubled when I thought they had and kept children after me. And I had thought all my life that I was unwanted, and after I found out, I was convinced of that. I was very upset. It was like life had hit me a second time. But the resentment was so strong that I never visited my parents. If I had asked why you didn’t need me, the answer would have hurt me even more. That’s why I still don’t visit them. I don’t know if I’m doing it right or not. Advise me if you can.